Update

I havent been doing to well at bloging lately, too many things goin on and not enough time to just sit down and type I guess.

But this Thanksgiving was a lot of fun, it honestly didnt feel like Thanksgiving really since I didnt get to help out making any of the food...(which was super wierd! i love cooking!) but my niece and a couple friends and I did the black friday shopping, I thought my niece Jordan was going to get into a fist fight w the wal mart lady lol which didnt end up being necessary since the guy standing guard by the camera I wanted (ps yes I FINALLY got a camera! now I can start recording all the fun adventures Im having in photo form only I cant seem to find any of the million SD cards I once owned) :S anyway back to the story :P

the guy standing next to the cameras told my niece that she didnt have to worry about standing in the huge line- since we got there before anyone pretty much and it wasnt until about an hour later when the lady told us we were supposed to be lined up on the other side- even though the cameras were on both sides....anyway. the guy said he would help her out and actualy handed her the very first one- which by the way the awnry old wal mart lady came over chasing Jordan down telling her she couldnt take the camera yet because it wasnt time lol even though by this time the workers had handed out about a dozen of them... I think she was having a really bad night haha...but we did make it out of there with my super sweet new touch screen camera that I absolutly love and cant wait to play with!!! :D

we checked out best buy after that - actualy had to stand out in the freakin freezing cold for a little while before we made it in - didnt find anything good there but I did however just happen to run into my most favorite bestest friend in the whole wide world! which made me SUPER HAPPY! I love her and freakin miss her INSANELY!!!!
I also ran into some old friends whom I hadnt seen in ages, so that was pretty cool.

I got to hang out with one of my old friends from back in the day, Kim who I honestly hadnt seen or even heard from in like 5-6 years... or something like that. It was a blast being with her! It was like no time had passed lol she is still the same ole Kim- which by the way has had the same hair cut for over 10 years so now that I am a hair stylist you know I am working my magic on her trying to convince her to step into the unknown and amazing world of hair ;) hahaha

other than that my trip to St George was spent hanging out with my amazing family and doing a few hair cuts/ colors which turned out awesome :)

Im seriously having such a blast in hair school! I absolutly LOVE what I do and I love learning more about it everyday! Tonight I did an awesome pixie hair cut (which are totally my favorite!)

The divorce stuff is really dont going so well things are kind of up in the air right now so I honestly do not even know whats going on. I just really want it to be over- sucks so bad to be going through it durring the holidays, but oh well. There are obviously huge lessons for me to be learning right now and I am trying my best to do so.

I didnt get pics from St George sadly :( but here are some fun hair pics Ive done lately. Enjoy!

Home for the Holidays

Im so happy to be home for the holidays this year, i dont have my own camera but im going to try my best to get everyone else to snap pics! :D

this is a short post but i just wanted to say happy thanksgiving to everyone! i am so grateful for the blessings i have in my life, my friends and family are the best and i could not ask for more :)

So.. Ive realized something..

I REALLY need a camera to capture all the great moments I am having here!
I had such a great weekend, it was a perfect reminder that I am doing the things that I need to be doing in my life right now and that is -HAVE FUN!
This is my time to live, its my time to heal, and its my time to jump without looking and trusting that I will be caught!
Friday was an amazing adventure! I got to go caving with a group of people my friend knew, we went to the Nutty Puddy caves which are seriously incredible, you cant make it out of there w out being completly covered in mud and dirt! But it was the BEST! I dont think I have had such an adventurous night in my whole life, the caves were full of tiny holes to squeeze yourself into, slippery rocks w no foot holds that would take all your arm strength to get you out, sweet slides to go down head first, rocks that made music when you hit them, seriously had everything you could imagine and more down there! For part of the way back we turned our flashlights off to make it more challenging! :D I seriously cant wait to go back! Once we got outside we played a sweet game of hacki sac with a burning coal from the fire, roasted marshmellos, took a run up a big mountain to see the view- we sat there and waited for a coyote or something to come out and chase us but that didnt happen :( haha

a few of the guys took off their shoes and walked over the burning coals left from the fire...i sadly didnt try that- which im regreting now- shouldve just gone for it ;) hahaha

the caves were in the middle of no where so we had to off road to get there and get back and both the trips in the jeep were awesome! I love off roading. here is a map of the caves :D

I dont know if I have ever been as sore as i was the next day and day after that though. Guess I better work on getting into shape! (i say this as i take another drink of my soda...ooops) :P hah

saturday was a chill day and yesterday was one of the best sundays i have had in a long time. I was kind of scared about going to a family ward by myself but they seriously are like a huge family and the bishop is simply an amazing guy! Im so lucky to be surrounded by so many amazing people that keep helping me get through everything. I also recieved a calling yesterday which I am full heartedly looking forward to!

Im so tired today but I get to go help a girl move out of her place, then help another lady from my ward who's on bed rest, then go to school...not sure if Im gonna make it through the night w out some major caffeeine or something...wish me luck :P

not going to lie...this sucks!

Things are pretty hard for me right now. I just wish things with Nate and I could be more simple. How do you treat someone who you were supposedly completly in love with with such disrespect and hate? I keep feeling like such a fool to be so in love with a man that could obviously care less about me. I wasnt even ready to give up 100% when I left- I thought of it more as a wake up call for him to realize what he was losing. I guess there is a part of me thats a hopeless romantic that thought maybe- just maybe- he would fight for me. That he would do everything and anything he could to save our marriage.
He didnt even wait 2 weeks before making the decision to file for divorce...a whole week and a half was enough time for him to realize he was done. Ouch is all I have to say to that.
Im not trying to have a pity party, this just sucks. I know I deserve so much better than this. But no matter whats been said or done he is still my husband, I chose him out of everyone to be my spouse, I chose him to be the one Id wake up to every morning and to fall asleep next to every night. I chose him to be the Father of my children, I chose HIM to be the one to complete me. I miss him. But I dont like this man he has become, I miss the man I fell in love with, I miss the butterflies and excitement Id get from his touch, I miss the man who said he would do anything for me, the man who said I was the only thing that made him happy. I miss all of that.
Ive got so many things that need to be done now and I am scared to death, I do not want to fight him in court, I dont want to be mean, I just want this to be done so I can move on since he is obviously moving on and away from me. I wish I could talk to him. Or see him, something. Even though I know- he is not the same person at all. The last time I got to hear his voice it didnt even sound like him. There was so much anger in his tone- ugh.
I dont want to ask "why me" because I know there is a perfect reason for everything that comes our way. I just wish this could be easier.
But one thing is for sure, I could not have greater people surrounding me, I love all my friends and family who have been here for me. Thank you all of you for everything.

Enjoy when you can, and endure when you must. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

"Life is a sea upon which the proud are humbled, the shirker is exposed, and the leader is revealed. To sail it safely and reach your desired port, you need to keep your charts at hand and up-to-date. You need to learn by the experience of others, to stand firm for principles, to broaden your interests, to be understanding of the rights of others to sail the same sea, and to be reliable in the discharge of your duty."

--President Thomas S. Monson, "Great Expectations", CES Firesides for Young Adults

If you surrender to the wind, you can ride it. ~Toni Morrison

so all of these quotes were put on here as a reminder to me that no matter what trials come our way, there is a way out and things will one day be far beyond what i could ever imagine.
i was served with my divorce papers from Nate yesterday and needless to say- they were absolutly ridiculous! the things he said in them are far beyond ludacrious! all i could do was laugh at them when i first started reading but later on in the day it stated to sink in that instead of him choosing the easy way out of this, he has started a battle. I am fearful for whats to come but I am trying to keep my head up and not let him bring me down, i hate that someone i loved completly can show no compassion or any ounce of love for me. I stood by him time and time again when all he did was push me away. i gave and gave and gave even when getting nothing in return. Not only that but when i left i left him with everything, all he had to do was sign for irreconsilable difference and be done with it, but no. instead he chose to lie. i realize though its not worth me caring what he says about me because i know the truth and one day he will be judge by the highest power of all and he will be the one to pay the consiquences of his actions.
This is basicly a venting post- i honestly just cant believe what this has turned into. all i can say is please pray for me, i really need help and strength right now, i feel so lucky to have the friends and family here by my side, they have all been so great i am so thankful for all they do for me.

The Time Has Come

Once again the year is coming to a close, the summer sun has now been hiden behind the grey clouds and cold wind, the leaves are changing colors and its time again for me to change my hair. haha ya I know that happens more than the changing of the seasons, but with the fall colors all around me, I was wanting a little bit of color splash for myself. So today Amber added some brown copper, sangria red and more blonde into my hair and it couldnt have turned out better, I seriously love it so much! I love having such an amazing best friend! Im also having sooo much fun at hair school! Im learning so much and having a blast doing so! I cant believe how much my life has changed in just a few short weeks, but its all for the better. Each day I take things a step at a time and each day has its own challenges, BUT I know with each step I take, I climb a little higher and soon I can look down at the mountain Ive climbed and realize Ive made it all the way to the top!
:D

anyway, here are some pics of my new do!

Happy Harvest Season to Everyone!

Dreams Come True Update!

So FANTASTIC news! I ended up getting into hair school!!!! I got to start last night! It seriously has been so amazing and Ive had sooo much fun! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it!
Life is seriously so amazing! I feel like I am so blessed and even though I am still dealing with some issues, I know this too shall pass and when all the rain clears my rainbow will be shinning BRIGHTLY :D
The important thing right now is I LOVE MY LIFE! :D

Dreams Really Do Come TRUE!

Going to Hair School has been one of my biggest dreams since I was in High School...maybe even Jr High.

I just never thought I would be able to go.

Now that I am here, I decided I am going to try to do all the things I WANT to :)

No holding myself back, no doubting myself, just jump and wait for the net to catch me.

Luckily I have amazing friends and family that keep reminding me making myself happy is what matters the most. I have always put others before myself, which isnt really a bad thing, but when you are never taking time for yourself...it can take its toll.

I also feel so blessed to have a place to live now! I started getting all my stuff settled in tonight, I bought new bedding (Totally girly lol I Love it!) and a bright pink body pillow to snuggle up to at night in my  twin sized bed..haha wierd..but I will get used to it.

When I was filling out the application for Dallas Roberts I was able to talk to the lady in charge of the financial aid and so forth, she helped me get my fasfa filled out and I am eligable for 3500 dollars in grants, but she thinks we can get me more than that so Monday I am going back to get things all figured out.

Honestly I cant even explain how blessed I feel. Ever since I got into town, I feel so much peace and I am actually happy! I spent the day with Becky and her two babies, we had so much fun just shopping around (well I know I had fun, haha her two girls were running away from us anywhere we went so Im not so sure she had that much fun) but we got to eat lunch w Amber and Cheryl at Chilli's yummm. :D hit up happy hour at Sonic . . . all in all it was a great day!
I love having this new found confindence in myself! I now know that no matter what trials we go through, we DO have the choice to make it as easy as we can, or make it harder than ever. As for me... I chose the easy way! :D

Blessings through trials.

So first of all, not only do I have a whole new perspective on my life now, I am learning to LOVE everything around me, I am appriciating the flowers, trees, sky...I am seeing beauty in everything. Learning there are lessons for every step we make in our lives. What dont kill us really will make us stronger.
I feel so blessed ever since I was driving through the canyons yesterday I have felt something so strong, I finally feel like I am HOME :D and today I was given an amazing blessing! I was able to find a place to live! I havent even been here a whole 24 hours and I already have a place to live! :) Its super cute to and I am looking forward to the girls nights with my roommies :) Not only that but it is SUPER close to Dallas Roberts Hair School. Its been a dream of mine to go to hair school since I was a teenager! One of my best friends is going there right now too so I made up my mind and I am finally going to do it! I am finally going to make my dreams become a reality! I cant wait to see what else is to come my way. Although I know this is going to be one of the most trying times I may ever have to go through, I also know that the Lord will ALWAYS be by my side. He will ALWAYS love me and I will FOREVER be gratefull for Him and all He does!

Time for ME

Alot of things have happened to me lately and I am going through some life changing events. I made this blog to help me get my life on the right track. For those of you who have been here for me through each step, thank you, and for anyone who is willing to stick by me from this time on...Thank you!
I know in my heart I have done what is right for me. I know that things will not be easy, but I also know they wil be worth it.

All my love
Erica