Enjoy when you can, and endure when you must. ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

"Life is a sea upon which the proud are humbled, the shirker is exposed, and the leader is revealed. To sail it safely and reach your desired port, you need to keep your charts at hand and up-to-date. You need to learn by the experience of others, to stand firm for principles, to broaden your interests, to be understanding of the rights of others to sail the same sea, and to be reliable in the discharge of your duty."

--President Thomas S. Monson, "Great Expectations", CES Firesides for Young Adults

If you surrender to the wind, you can ride it. ~Toni Morrison

so all of these quotes were put on here as a reminder to me that no matter what trials come our way, there is a way out and things will one day be far beyond what i could ever imagine.
i was served with my divorce papers from Nate yesterday and needless to say- they were absolutly ridiculous! the things he said in them are far beyond ludacrious! all i could do was laugh at them when i first started reading but later on in the day it stated to sink in that instead of him choosing the easy way out of this, he has started a battle. I am fearful for whats to come but I am trying to keep my head up and not let him bring me down, i hate that someone i loved completly can show no compassion or any ounce of love for me. I stood by him time and time again when all he did was push me away. i gave and gave and gave even when getting nothing in return. Not only that but when i left i left him with everything, all he had to do was sign for irreconsilable difference and be done with it, but no. instead he chose to lie. i realize though its not worth me caring what he says about me because i know the truth and one day he will be judge by the highest power of all and he will be the one to pay the consiquences of his actions.
This is basicly a venting post- i honestly just cant believe what this has turned into. all i can say is please pray for me, i really need help and strength right now, i feel so lucky to have the friends and family here by my side, they have all been so great i am so thankful for all they do for me.