Maybe it is because its a new month, or maybe the fact that I got a lot of things off my chest these past few weeks, whatever it is, I feel a renewed sense of life coming about. I know my last post was pretty much a downer- not going to lie- I was really hurt. But the one true miracle about pain is it truly makes us stronger and better people. I have realized what things really don't matter as much to me as I "thought" they did.
I am also in complete gratitude for a few people in my life that are constantly teaching me lessons and opening my eyes to a new view point on things.
I have reached a point where I am over my break up, which is crazy since it really has only been a week since the split, but a lot has happened this past week, not to mention the fact that I am pretty much incapable of holding a grudge- which I am not complaining about. I decided if anyone was going to make me happy in life- it was going to be ME. I can't change the actions, words, or thoughts of others, but what I can change are my own as well as my reaction to others actions. I had a feeling to call my ex just to see how he is doing as well as let him know I am doing ok now...the second I went to my contacts and pressed dial- his picture popped up and my heart sunk...deep breath... secretly hoping for his voicemail to kick in but knocking that thought out of my head since that is a chicken exit out of the situation... however a few short rings later and I got his voicemail. Which by the way is a message he created while in a super happy mood and he tells everyone to have a great day because you deserve it. Listening to his attitude on the phone made me miss talking to him every day.....but anyway... :) I left him a message (voice shaking the whole time) and told him that no matter what, I am just grateful for what I have learned from him and that I truly do love him and his family dearly and do not ever want to lose them so I asked if we could just be friends since I really do feel I am in a good enough place now that I could see him as just a friend and be ok...
He didn't respond until the next night and he text me telling me that he would love it if we could be friends...so....friends it is.
On another note :) I went home this past weekend to spend time with the fam, which usually consist of nothing more than me doing hair from sun up till sun down, but its a great thing its my passion :) I enjoyed being able to be there for my family and give them something that makes them feel beautiful. - I am going to be better at taking pictures after I do someones hair I can start showcasing my work...I usually just forget lol
Saturday night after getting everyones hair done with the exception of my nieces extensions, I went out with my mom and her bf Doug to Mesquiet to watch a comedy show and go dancing. My moms always hated stand up comics so I found it interesting she wanted to go, we ended up having such a great time, all 3 of the performers were awesome. :) After the show we headed out to the dance floor where the band was playing 80's music- which don't get me wrong, I love 80's music... but to dance to??? It was a little interesting at first and we considered leaving and heading to the Virgin River for country dancing, however I am more than grateful we didn't leave. We ended up having so much fun dancing and towards the end of the night I ended up hanging out w this guy who turned out to be an A-MAZING dancer and singer, he is a musician--seriously scored huge bonus points being able to sing and dance ;) and the fact that he is really good looking didn't hurt either ;) It was getting late and I really did not want to leave by that point...and he didn't want me to leave either- even though in just a few short hours he was supposed to be getting up to go golfing- he and his buddies were out there for a tournament that weekend. He was seriously the sweetest guy ever and kept telling me I couldn't leave him, he even offered to buy me my own room so I know I'd be safe if I just stayed a little longer with him. As much of a good time as that would have been, I knew I had to leave...so I did. :(
But meeting him has definitely took my mind off of a few things and whats even better is he lives in Ogden, I wish he lived out here closer to me, but still I am grateful that its not too far away. He asked me to come to one of his concerts, which I seriously can't wait for! :) He has his solo stuff online, you can check him out at www.prestoncreed.com and see for yourself how amazingly talented he is ;)
I was also treated to a very nice dinner date on Sunday with a guy I've known for over a year now. Things went well...I am not sure that will go anywhere but it felt great to be pampered by a guy for once! I got flowers, he cooked all the dinner, we watched a movie while giving me a foot rub... what more could ya ask for? haha I guess a connection would make things more perfect. But what can ya do? Can't win em all right?
School got a little crazy the other night, a lot of emotions were stirred up and a lot of venting occurred. It was the first time in over a year of being at that school that I expressed how crappy things had been going. Usually I do my best to look at the bright side of everything but I just wasn't happy at all the way things went that night.... luckily we have been blessed with two of the most amazing educators ever!!! They sat down with us for 4 hours until we got everything off our chest, the energy in the room was intense!!!! One girl in my class is so sweet, she couldn't stand to see everyone act like that so she got up to get us all ice cream. There are some things girls just gotta have when they are down ;) haha
last night I decided to treat everyone to soda and candy in order to make them have a good night. It turned out a lot of people were having crazy days yesterday too so candy and soda hit the spot.
I am just realizing how simple it is to make or break someones day. I definitely want to be committed in being a day maker. Life really is too short to let all the small stuff get to me. Even though I know its easier to say that do at times, but I am making a commitment to myself to be the best me I can be. To make these last few months of school the best months ever, I really am going to miss all the girls there. They have become more family than friends. I also realize how much time I have spent separating myself from them because I felt like if I stuck to myself, I wouldn't have to get involved in the drama that everyone else is going through. I see now that was a pretty selfish way to go about things, I want to be there for them- the way they have been there for me.
Anyway, I am sure I rambled on in this post, but I just have had so many great things happen that I wanted to share. Things are only going up from here!
PS Thanks for all your love and support!
